spine and spin

Yesterday I cried at a dance performance for the first time. It was a rose wrapped in drapes and a little prince tip-toeing on top of a ball, magic sparkling from the muscles, dancers who seemed to be carved brutally yet so gentle, as gentle as passion can be, the unbelievable strength of a body in love floating through a story. From the balcony of the theater, I felt my eyes expanding vision to another form of explosion. I wanted to dance too. My secret dream is the circus. I keep secrets in the same place as I hold fears, and I try not to understand too much of what I am afraid of. But I’ve always wanted to dance. A tap dancer, to be more precise, if I could ever be reborn.  I am more influenced than I would like to be. I absorb too much of the impact of what is visible to the eyes, essential or not – I want to reproduce what I feel in any way available. I want to dance too. I still want to. So many times unsuccessfully I tried to recognize my body in movement, tried to catch my arms in a better position and understand how my knees work. When I pass by any glass building in New York City, I absolutely hate the way I am standing so crooked. I spent most of my wonders in hopes for a new construction of a spine. How I wish I had a better posture… for that I often think my body was not designed for melody. I hold rhythm in my throat, I try to convince myself I’m only for words and sound and tongue, not ever for the waves and muscles and balance. Can one be happy staying still?  I wish I could be more than what I speak. I wish my body could talk too.

Nalü Romano

"Chronicles of the young immigrant women"

A column by Nalü Romano for EmpowHer NY

Nalü is a Brazilian multidisciplinary artist, writer, actor, comedian and activist based in New York City since 2016. She's the author of "yoü (and all the other stuff hurting me too)" best seller of LGBTQI+ poetry on amazon books. She's EmpowHer NY's columnist with the "Chronicles Of The Young Immigrant Women" and works actively in feminist and human rights causes, such as "Mulheres da Resistência no Exterior" and "Campanha Onde Dói." Signs her name and some words with the two dots "ü" to create and spread a smiley face.

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